Disclaimer:* If you cry easily like me, pls standby a packet of tissue with you before you cont reading, thanks..
So long since i last blogged!
May wasnt a good month for me, i travelled to Batam for 2 trips. All 2 are filled with tears. 1st was when aunt fainted suddenly and got hospitalised and seeing her suffer my heart ache. 2nd time i see her was actually when she recovered and able to talk to me laugh with me etc, she came sg for check-up. But the result was not good. She have this blood vessel on the verge of bursting agn. Doctor says it can be fatal if she dont operate immediately. And chance of the operation is 90% which is quite high.
But aunt didnt wanna go under the knifes. Everyone thought, she woke from a short coma, and from bed-ridden to being able to go on foot but still need assistance. And from totally cant do anything to being able to eat by her own, and totally like the usual her, just only the wheel-chair. She went to the bank and did every neccessary transferrings to her daughter. The next day when she went back to Batam from the check-up, chatting happily, and talking to her daughter about me, the one she dotes most other than her only daughter.
Suddenly, while she's bathing, her hands becomes stiff, like kinda stroke. They rush her to the local hosp and to realise that that blood vessel the Sg doc was talking about ytd, has burst...
She was in coma, and the rush her to SGH here. They say the chances of operation now is less than 30%, even if the operation is successful, she'll also be paralysed neck down.... I was like wtfffff. Stayed till midnight and cousin wants to bring her back to Batam, and..., let her go.. T.T
3rd time, which is there, the 2nd trip to Batam, was to actually attend her funeral... I've lost someone or probably the only one who makes me feel impt to a person. The first time she was hospitalised, she kept calling my name, and only my name. Apparently i rushed down and sort of made her laugh a lil before i came back to Sg as the next day i'm working.
She passed away not grasphing for breathe but went peacefully while my relatives are all praying for her. The last time she was hospitalised, she was alr in a coma. And strangely her eyes opened and looked ard before she close and went...
The next day, blood from her brain flow down from her neck to the shoulders. I didnt get to see her the last time in the coffin. But i guess she 'planned' it all, or rather, fated? To leave only good impression of her in me.
The worse part was, i think she knew what was coming for her. Its a miracle that she woke up from the 1st short coma, which doc all says its a miracle. She came Sg and did all the transferrings. And i left shortly after lunch with them cos i had my dental consultation. Before i left she asked me to visit her at Batam, i told her i would if i'm able to get leave, cos its not v nice to take so many leaves even though its unpaid. So she said, :" Come visit me soon la.."
Somehow like she knew she couldnt make it soon, her tone is like she knew she had to leave v soon, but she cant bear to. She even happily told her daughter she asked me to visit her.
Yima, thanks for all your love and care to all of us. Even though you didnt get to be my pillion like i promised to pillion you ard when you visit Sg. I'm glad you went to a better place and you dont have to suffer from pain anymore. Every lil things about you that i know, i'll keep it with me forever.
Our fav teh C, your gong shi bao(workbag, which is in your case a plastic bag to put all your stall's earnings), your fishball noodles which i always get alot mini fishballs, extra ingredients. How i used to help out by serving noodles to customers. How you personally make me milo every 3pm strikes.
My deepest condolences
Bye forever Yima<3
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So hard to switch back to normal blogging after posting about my aunt. So i'll just caption the pics.
The cousin whom always acted as 'my' mother when we're playing ban jia jia jiu in the past.
They purposely bought this windmill thingy for taking photos, i laughed at first but eventually photos with that turns out quite nice.
The red flower belongs to 'my' mother.
So long since i last wore PJ!
Did a full eye makeup cos of the ample time i have.
I didnt know i'm so tan!!!! After this pic i found out that i got watch tan mark, and rings tan mark when i take them off, that part is oh so fair!
Cousins! The 3 at the left of the pics are real blood sisters.
Finally someone same height same skinny as me. Lol
& not to mention, Batam is filled with childrens, toddlers and babies! Plus, i'm v popular among them, idk why! They always stick ard me, wanna paly with me etc, i think because i'm a baby like them. Haven grow up.
Elder sister whom look like japanese.
Sisters! So damn cute!
Younger sister whom look like korean! SO CUTE RIGHT!? Absolutely love her lips! Eeee i want baby:x
Hahaha our babies signature pout lips! Seeing babies really make me smile:)
And during the month of may, i skipped a few prac lessons cos unlucky enough i always sick when prac date comes near. No choice;( still stuck at prac 5:( Went once only wtf. Next lesson next wed wtf agn.
Got my toes swollen, cos when i was bout to go prac, i went to take my helmet but when i open the cupboard baby's helmet dropped right smack on my toe! NB!
Painted my nails polka dots which is so extremely cute den changed to spearmint colour with blings polka dots! Totally like disco ball. Hahaha i like! Super blings!^^ But now my nails are naked, gonna do smth else soon!
See, medi buffet. Woo.
AYAM PENYET!
I hate socialising with Singaporean, or rather i hate to meet his friends and do stupids things den girls get abandon, but i hate more if im not there. Idk what i want. Lol ok basically, im fine with going anywhere except places with lians and bengs, like going play pool, arcade, etc. Worse is pool, cos i dont even know how to play.
Bought my polo tee that is the same one with the one i bought for baby! Hee. I like, intend to get some more:x This one looks abit big, no more S or XS, so no choice, get M since i alr made the trip down.
June, is so sucky. Idk what strikes him but he suddenly seems to have changed, all because of a stupid thing. -.- wtf. Is like either way i'm also alone... If i let him, of cos he'll be stuck there for hrs, i'm alone. If i dont, he'll ignore me and be stuck in his dream, agn i'm alone. Hais. Idk what to do, days are hard to pass. He has no limit. For that stupid thing he can ignore me for the night, next morning pretended nth happen and do nth about it! Not even apologise or at least do smth, no. Seeing each other in a room and each doing their things doesnt make the love grow, understand?
Anyway, dont judge him, i'm just letting out what i feel, i need to have some where to let me voice out. And i'm just grumbling, hopefully enough it can get in to his brain, but if he still choose that over me it'll be really devastating for me. Even the person i look as the most important dont even see me as that important, i guess really only yima finds me impt. Sigh.
Dont be mistaken that our relationship is v rocky, we're still like usual if that thing doesnt get in between us like when we're out etc. Its only when the moment we reach home, he seems "possessed" by it. he doesnt seem to care.. bout me after being "possessed". That sure is a jinx between couples:( I hate.
H-a-h-a, whats the point of being me which is even uncomparable to a non living thing? Pathetic much uh?
BTW, I'm selling my 32gb 2nd gen iPod Touch! Totally no scratches AT ALL. Interested/enquiries pls leave a tag of your contact details, i'll contact you:)
The cousin whom always acted as 'my' mother when we're playing ban jia jia jiu in the past.
They purposely bought this windmill thingy for taking photos, i laughed at first but eventually photos with that turns out quite nice.
The red flower belongs to 'my' mother.
So long since i last wore PJ!
Did a full eye makeup cos of the ample time i have.
I didnt know i'm so tan!!!! After this pic i found out that i got watch tan mark, and rings tan mark when i take them off, that part is oh so fair!
Cousins! The 3 at the left of the pics are real blood sisters.
Finally someone same height same skinny as me. Lol
Elder sister whom look like japanese.
Sisters! So damn cute!
Younger sister whom look like korean! SO CUTE RIGHT!? Absolutely love her lips! Eeee i want baby:x
Hahaha our babies signature pout lips! Seeing babies really make me smile:)
Got my toes swollen, cos when i was bout to go prac, i went to take my helmet but when i open the cupboard baby's helmet dropped right smack on my toe! NB!
Painted my nails polka dots which is so extremely cute den changed to spearmint colour with blings polka dots! Totally like disco ball. Hahaha i like! Super blings!^^ But now my nails are naked, gonna do smth else soon!
See, medi buffet. Woo.
AYAM PENYET!
I hate socialising with Singaporean, or rather i hate to meet his friends and do stupids things den girls get abandon, but i hate more if im not there. Idk what i want. Lol ok basically, im fine with going anywhere except places with lians and bengs, like going play pool, arcade, etc. Worse is pool, cos i dont even know how to play.
Bought my polo tee that is the same one with the one i bought for baby! Hee. I like, intend to get some more:x This one looks abit big, no more S or XS, so no choice, get M since i alr made the trip down.
SHILI AZELEA ASHLEIGH
